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2009-04-18T00:54:00.002+08:00

hey guys.. finally had a time and the energy and the feel to update. haha..

hmmm.. the latest post will be on easter. long and tired weekend but fun and fulfilling. had many friends and try to know each one of them but not much time as some had to leave early.. its okay. do hope that they will be back. =)

just had cg bbq just now for welcoming back the friends. glad that a few of them came.. had fun and many food. yum yum.. home at ard 11pm with annie driving. funny journey cos went a little round finding emi's place lol. follow by esther and me. then jia then derrick.. hope annie dun do anything funny lol..

read smth which is so ridiculous. 2 best fren kiss. OH MAN! cant believe it. must 2 fren kiss to know if you have the feelings for one another? get the facts right. argh.. so disturb by it.. dunno how shud i describe that feel.. its not a very good feeling that will fade in hours.. =s

continue to pray and shine. i'll not give up.. there's many things out there waiting for me to do/complete.. =)

2009-02-12T20:38:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone.. my blog is alive.. resurrect.. haha.. got the sudden feel to blog today but i dunno where and how to start. hmmm.. feel weirds.

wonder why its so sudden. no notice, no hint, just come, pack and leave.. whats the reason? just cos not up to standard? i feel that its not just this. many double-faced around.. you wun know when you are safe. and now i dun hav a colleague till next week. wonder how's it like.. dun have the mood to work today and so sad to see you leave. how am i gg to work without ur guidance and teaching! now its gg to be quiet..

many things gg on this week. pm, updates.. its pack and busy, but we believe that everything will turn out well. that as we do it accordingly, all will be added into our life. its difficult and hard to reali do so many things in a week but do continue to go for it. believe you can even if you're tired.. when you get the results, you wun regret putting all the effort. you will wan to do more and realize that all you done is not in vain..

cant wait for sunday to come. to have dinner wit u guys.. always lots of weird and funny stuff. hmmm.. and we ALWAYS attract people looking at our way. too attractive huh! lol.. anw, ya shall stop here. will write another entry soon after this weekend. got dinner on sat and sun.. i know that everything will turn out well. =)

sometimes expectation that we set may be too high for us to reach, or even ppl ard us. do lower the expectation a little so as not to make a big step in front and miss out the small ways in the front.. set smth that is do-able and possible. =) pray that i'll be able to go for camp in june and my whole connect group will go. have fun, know more ppl and more bonding. yay!

take care everyone.. weather is not good.. cheers!

2009-01-01T23:42:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 2009! Its the start of a brand new year.. Everything that happen in 2008 is the past. we should look forward to the new year and be prepared to do more great work, do our best in everything we do.. =)

be more courageous and have more faith in the big and small things that we do. the little things always touch people.. let's arise and do greater things.. step out and don't be afraid!

for this post, i would like to thank everyone that i know.
for being with me, brighten up my life, guiding me..
once again,
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE..

2008-12-11T20:42:00.002+08:00

Ahh.. its almost a month since i last update. so im here to update now.. =)

many things going on for the month of november, this month is oso pack and busy.. the week after bday was asia conference. took off and went for session everyday. cool.. very impacted by the messages and had many fun for the past few days. those who went will know. *wink

this week is already the 2nd week of dec and in no time its gonna be end of the year. a brand new year is coming! ~whee~
last weekend had a guest speaker. and we receive a 'talking stone'. heh heh..

anyway what i wanna talk about is my BDAY!! haha..
my bday is on a sunday and i had to wake up early.. travel to jw to attend daryll's water bap. then off to lunch and then to harbourfront(tiff make a video. wanna see go facebook). after that char make appt for me to go trim eyebrown.-for details, facebook. haha.. went to walk ard sourcing for perfume with char. wah smell almost lik 10 diff fragance..

haha then after that SOMEONE keep wanting to follow her dunno to where. smth is fishy huh.. lol. anw, the someone ask me acc her to ecp to take smth from her fren. and since its near my place, i acc her(so nice of me =>) so many funny stunts huh. go toilet. then walk almost the quarter of ecp.. suddenly, somebody sneak up from behind and cover my eyes. and got usher to lead me. haha.. and im lead to a table filled with food, drinks. SUPRISE! very touched.. pics all on facebook. haha.. its an enjoyable nite. i duno how to describe the feeling but it touches deep inside.. =D Thanks all!

and of cos not forgetting my CG. =D char and the rest of the members. celebration start from fri all the way to sunday. surprises, dinner, and companionship.. great bday i had. special thanks to everyone who had celebrated my bday and wish me.. Ana's bday was exciting too. haha.. let's do smth great for the bday of ppl that we know. =)

shall end here. will update soon. take care everyone and enjoy the last few weeks of dec.. =)

2008-11-16T23:54:00.002+08:00

Yay its a great day today.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HWEE YING!

HAHA.. im not being loner but wanna wish myself with happy day, happy life and be bless in everything i do. shall update more again.. =)

2008-10-27T03:52:00.002+08:00

hello. its like 10 days since i last update.. here i am, wanting to update on sat but i reach home late and was quite tired so wait till now. hmmm..

wanna update a song we sang during svc.. like the chorus so much. =)
it goes:
Let every voice declare it now
My God reigns, His love will never fail me
My God reigns, His ruling over all
In all my life, in every situation i know
My God is greater, my God is over all

sounds so nice. make my faith stronger.. to know that i've my God with me in all that i do. and to keep on running towards the vision that i have.. no fears and failure. hang in there and all i get is what i want.. all that matter is NOW! dun keep waiting and never get it done. do NOW! =)

Pastor emphase on the foundation. love everyone for who they are no matter how different people is.. show them God's love and that they're people ard them who care. let them have more confidence, self-esteem, etc.. tink its good to be recaping that we always need to be on the run and running the vision tgt. to shine out there in the marketplace, to penetrate the marketplace.. isn't it amazing to do it tgt? tink its cool!

yeah so do start your engine and start to run NOW! put on your seatbelt and speed.... Jiayou everyone.. *thumbs-up =>

2008-10-16T22:55:00.002+08:00

HELLO..

wanna update on this day. one month from now is a BIG DAY! haha.. everyone remember. =>

a short entry today. i've been like reading books lately. those fiction books.. haha.. then can read alost 3 quarter of it in one day. wow, power! lols.. not bragging but sharing. heh heh.. wonder when i'll be able to have a week or so of break to slp, rest and meet up with friends. im like pack week after week.. wan meet me? ask me in advance. =P

and and i've 2-3 blessing lik in one and a half week. good news is shared. haha.. thanks God for all the blessings. wanna know what isit? come ask me! wahahaha..

lastly, wanna wish ALL THE BEST to those having O and A level. O level is next week and A level is first week of nov.. do mug hard and continue to perserver. dun slack and increase ur speed.. do burn lots of oil now and you can enjoy after all paper. take care and see you soon.. JiayoU =>

2008-10-12T22:23:00.002+08:00

here i am coming to update again..

to creater:im updating another entry. dun say i nv update. haha..

got the sudden feel to update. hmmm.. have been reading newspaper almost everyday. and dunno what's happening lately. many accidents, death.. can hear the siren of ambulance lik 3-4 times per week passing by my workplace area. and make me think why ppl wan to commit sucide when they're ppl who are fighting against illness, sickness?

life is really so fragile.. you never know when you'll leave this world. and you never know when ppl ard you will leave you one day.. okay im a little positive here. but, do cherish everyone ard you know while you can.. do things that you will not regret. try to spend time with your love one.. be more engage in activity so that you can have more experience in life.

yeah and im thinking of smth so negative. if one day, im down with any illness, who will i tell? what will i do; to face it positively or to just live my life away? hmmm.. its just a little thought as im bored at work. so i'll think of such stuff. lol.. yeah im thankful that im healthy, less time of falling sick. heh..

i dunno why but i wanna say that im so happy to know all my friends. brought more colour to my life.. im more happy, more talkative then before. and can even say lame jokes. =>

wanna tell my friends I LOVE ALL OF YOU
and wanna wish Tiffany and Francine a very HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
stay Pretty and Cheerful aLwaYs =)

2008-10-01T22:51:00.002+08:00

hello everyone.. im like updating once per month. lolx..

okay.. here goes.. today is children's day. here wishing all kids Happy Children's Day! do hope you enjoy your day.. yeah and church had event for them in the morning. last sat was the first svc.. today was the 2nd+acyual day.. haha.. its so fun can. make me wanna go back being young. wahahaha.. anyway, what i do was to bring the kids from where they live to church. ensure they are well taken care of and not to let anything happen to them.. =>

im like a teacher lately and have been involved in younger activities. upcoming event is the psle party..woah.. its gonna be great man. the invitation card and gifts is sooo nice. heh heh.. im so attracted to it. its okay if i cant attend.. i'll try my best to make it their best fun party they have..

gonna be like pack till end of year. psle party this month, asia conference next month and christmas next next month. haha.. busy schedule i got. lolx.. but shall find time to meet my friends. there's always a time for meet-up thou.. shall update after my psle party i guess. unless i have something to share. =)

everyone, do take care.. weather's not very good. on and off.. ciao. =p

2008-09-21T00:46:00.002+08:00

hello everyone.. its been long since i last update. haha..

lazy to come online to type. lolx.. been attach to bugis to work for 2-3 weeks le..haven fully get use to waking up early to go work. need beauty sleep so much! sunday is so precious to me now. the only day where i can sleep in..

dunno why but feel that that several things are happening recently. the U.S. stocks, and also can hear ambulance or fire engine everyday..what's happening nowadays? oh man..

this week had been a busy week. monday went jw for a leaders meeting with pastor. what he said hit us and makes us think.. he say, everytime, people give ideas, to do this and do that.. but, he also add that unless it is act out, it is still a idea.. a wonderful sentence. and it makes us think back what we had done this year.. did we really act out what we had suggest out? hmmm.. friends, its time to start. be accountable/responsible for what u say. don't keep dragging cause whatever you suggest will not be done on its own.. if you cant handle it alone, get people to help.. there's always friends around you who are available to help.

sometimes i wanna speak. but sometimes i dunno what to say, how to start.. don't make me not to talk to you.. for all that you said, i see nothing.

i read a book on fri. come across something which i wanna share.. can be an encouragement..-->God's promise was never that life would be fair. God's promise was that, when we had to confront unfairness of life, we would not have to do it alone for He would be with us. =)

shall update agn soon.. gonna sleep as early as i can. everyone do take care.. weather's hot, drink more water and have enuff rest. =>

2008-08-26T23:43:00.002+08:00

sadness
hmmm.. decide to blog. was having feelings i dun like just now.. i din go work last fri and sat. head and back was so pain on fri that i lie on bed for most of the day.. and i din go see doc. then this mon when i went back work, hr and few ppl ask.. so i said i never go see doc. partly was cause i dun hav the money to see doc.. normally, ppl will say cause cant get out of bed or seriously sick.. but i dunno why i just say i no money. its like i just couldn't care about my face.. to other colleague, they seem ok. but the manager that im under, he asked me aft work and i just say out i dun hav money. and he lik ask what abt ur parents? i feel lik telling him if got money i sure go see. but i dunno.. and wat he reply i feel lik shouting out. he said:'no i don't believe'. what the! but suddenly i got a feel of not bothering abt him. a sentence came to my mind. 'if the manager don't believe its ok. ur Father believes!'

i hope i'll faster get to another branch or i'll leave that job soon. too costly for bus and train.. hard to cover the cost now. i'll not bother abt that man and just do my work.. he'll be just an invisible person to me from now on. i just dunno how i can talk to him.. do hope that i'll hav the rest of the week in happiness and peace.

jiayou everyone. its the exam season now.. it may be late for some of you but do enjoy your coming holis and all the best for your results! =)

2008-08-22T00:36:00.002+08:00

hmmm.. wed bs was great! talking about 7 different kind of faith. i believe its a word for many people present there.. was so tired when i went bs. thank god i can concentrate but i cant remember the moment bs was over.. guess im too tired le.there's a sentence that have been heard a few times and during bs, it was mention again.. he says 'don't focus on the storms in your life'. if you keep thinking about the problem, it won't give you a solution. it will make you think more.. as we grow, we face more trials and overcoming all that will make us realize things in out life. it'll that make us grow more mature, more stronger and more independent in the way we do things. we won't rely much on people..

start my new job on mon. was so excited about it and was also anxious that i won't be able to cope.. but, so far all i do was to read their procedures and their necessary information. and i got to admit that i doze off while reading.. man, eyes is so tired looking through those pages after pages of words and information.. and i always struggle to open my eyes! haix. had known quite a few people at workplace and they're quite friendly and nice.. although they're more mature, but i know there's always topic to talk about. =) was so tired at work. was glad to have people chatting with me.

been feeling so tired lately. im not use to waking up early and travelling to tp and squeezing with people on the train. do hope that i can faster go to the branch im attached to so i got straight bus and don't need change to train..

hmmm.. been quite tired recently. don't have the energy to think of anything.. can i like just move back a few steps to rest at a shelter i just past and continue the journey after a rest. i dunno but this is something that im giving myself. i give myself too little rest and always busy.. so i'll feel so tired and wanna have a rest.

please, let me have a destination so i can move on and not to stand at the original place nor move back to have a rest.. tell me i'll able to have a long rest after the long journey is over.... i'll leave my cares onto yours hands. Your're my refuge, my shelter, my healer and strength..

2008-08-08T01:07:00.002+08:00

friendship/relationship is fragile. its either you make it, or you break it. every relationship that you have with a person, holds a meaning in life. you'll have bad and good mermories. no relationship is perfect, cause noone is perfect! you can be a better person by changing. its not asking you to change for the sake of others but to change for the better. =) everytime you make a change, you're growing. you'll be more responsibe and more independent in ways of handling things.. you will no longer find friend to talk but you solve it yourself. its good but you can also find someone to talk to so you'll feel better letting it out..

friends are choosen by ourself. we know our friends through different ways in life and love them for who they are.. of course we don't expect ourself to tell them everything about us the moment we know each other. we got to be more familier, comfortable with each other so we can open up.. as years past, we will grow,change to someone more matured.. likewise to our friends too!

don't say you really know your friend unless you know yourself well. because if people know you more than you know yourself, its weird rite. lolx. and most importantly, you must love yourself! =p

there'll be many friends around us. but not all will stay and can always be there for us.. do treasure the friends that you have. one day they'll leave and have a family of their own.. you too will have your own family. so don't rely too much on friend, be independent! =) i love all my friend. let's work hard towards our dream. do something to let your friend know you love them too! =p

i shall end with something. if one day your friend choose his/her partner over friendship, don't blame your friend. because when you have a partner, you will also choose your partner. never say 'no, i won't', because you'll. but of course, your partner should get along well with your friends. if not, then you'll be trap in between. HAHA!

shall stop here. currently waiting for job to knock on my doors.. saving to fly. =p once again, love everyone. *hugs*

2008-08-06T00:13:00.002+08:00

finally updating after fop as i said. haha.. people nagging me le. oops..

quite lost at what to blog. hmmm.. let's start on 2oth july.
as usual, we meet up to celebrate one of our birthday from our grop. guess who? its kuku sock's bday. haha.. meet up at marche for dinner. then after that sit at the open area at vivo, chat a little and home we go. everytime we meet up, time seems to past so fast.. we have lots to talk but it always never ending. and the next time we meet its lik a month time cos not all is free to meet up weekly. haha.. all're busy person. my turn to be busy soon. =p got to enjoy my free life now as much as i can.

the week after was pst derek sharing message.. its about Running the race to win. we have many race in our life to complete.. it can be easy or difficult. no matter how difficult/hard the race is, we got to try our best to finish it.. we don't always complete the run because of the prize but we complete the run because we want to finish it. but to know we can complete it eventhough its tough.. =)

hmmm.. had fop last week so cg and normal svc was cancelled. fop was from fri-sun. cant go on fri cause was not well.. went for sat's svc. was meeting to queue at 1030am but reach like ard 1pm. oops.. then we had a great time fellowshipping, knowing cass's fren, angelina. do hope she will join us for cg and svc.. svc was great but got to open eyes most of the time to see lyrics. haha.. message was great! shall not elaborate further. and i only went out for 2 days last week(wed-bs,sat-svc). rest of the week,at home!! slack,eat, watch tv. oh man.. gonna rust soon.

wanted to go town this mon but by the time i bathe, watch tv, i lazy travel so far. end up meet su,sock,annie for dinner. just 4 of us but had a nice meal and a short chat abt holiday and future home.. haha..

went to apply for jon on tues. the person say she had 5 jobs to help me with. i was lik 'wow', 'ok'. haha.. then she's gonna apply all 5 and see which job reply first. do hope that i'll be able to get a job soon and i can have money.. life without money is lifeless. cant do anything cos life consist of money..

all the best for me!
friend:i update my blog already. haha.. let's have a gathering real soon. not birthday, not occassion. but a meet up where we can have a good time tgt and share about our life =) shall update soon.. love everyone =p

2008-07-14T23:23:00.003+08:00

haha.. here to update again..

had a great weekend last week. haha.. cell group din end quite late. got annie to fetch us from tampines inter to tiffany's place. save bus fare! lolx.. aft cell group, went 85 eat. cos annie drive so char suggest going there to eat.. annie was brain-wash by char and ester into wearing skirt for service on sat. haha.. and she did not say anything even when we're reaching home.

saturday came.. and we all got a surprise. cause, ANNIE WEAR SKIRT.. haha.. she put eyeliner and did her hair too. was a great surprise man.. service was good. Pst kong was back to share word.. after that had a very short briefing then went airport to fellowship. wanted to eat swensens but the queue was lik so long.. then we went food court but we bought popeye to food court. haha.. but after that we went swensens to eat ice-cream. cool! dunno why our topic that nite was about our partner. annie start the ball rolling la. lolx.. haha.. yeah and jia was lik going to sleep any moment. in the end we chat till 1 plus and home we go.

and here comes sunday.. meet for ball with jia, su, nan, annie. a short game and we were like panting. wah, long time never exercise. haha.. then off we go buy sweet talk then we split into 2 groups. i went wit jia then su, nan, annie went other way.. wanted to go home but end up going jia's place. haha.. eat there then watch a little tv then home.

was home from sunday till now. need to go out and breathe fresh air.. haha.. k la, shall end here. shall update again soon.. =)

2008-07-09T01:36:00.002+08:00

first entry for this month.. hmmm..

many things have been going on this few weeks. there's good and bad. saw the show that zoe tay act in and was so encourage by the friendship the 3 lady had.. no matter what happen, one call and the other 2 will rush down. strong friendship thay have..! its the love and concern that hold them strong. cool..

cg and svc was great last week.. inner healing. mike connell was great.. ppl got delivered and the message was soo good. teach about 'overcoming disappointment'. many ppl was lik 'Wow'.. message had impacted many ppl. shall not brief much or it'll be an essay le. haha..

yupp and think that the week had been great for many many ppl. get deliver and manage to get those unhappiness out.. for me, i oso manage to get it out. manage to find someone to talk to. been like imposing on her recently.. haha.. cried, say it out.. yeah, feel better le. thanks friend..

sunday went to play ball at siglap cc wit jia,annie,yt,minghao, and one of yt's friend.. duno why but dun seems to play well(as usual) and hand got hit by ball. pain..! and i teared can. oh my tian, so pai seh.. but pain so my tear cant control. aiyo, injury is unavoidable when playing ball. ya then aft that jia went home first then we went 85 to eat.. after eat, slack abit, had our talk.. but ya, a little hard nite for me.. cry when i say ana's message. aiyo.. din know why ana's message was so power. hmmm.. but after that, had a rest at home, felt much better.

ps:sorry for troubling you.. thanks for listening to me. and i know and i know that there's always friend by my side.. =) im not alone and there's ppl i can turn to. but i know you too had a hard time.. let's share our troubles man. thanks friend.. love you. =p
kopi-oh, i love you too =>

2008-06-25T01:04:00.002+08:00

hmmm.. finally got something to blog about.

earlier on, read about a post regarding friendship. and it makes me think about the people, friends around me.. friendships is hard to handle and can be as fragile as a glass. if u don't handle it with care, it can break and all u get is the broken pieces.. i know its a weird way of describing friendship but i can't think of any other thing to describe. heh..

hmmm.. as people get to know one another, spend time with one another, as time past, friendship is bulit. but if you do not contact, talk to each other for some time, the friendship will no longer be the same. will become further, drift away from one another. its sounds like a relationship but it really is! haha.. and i know that if 2 or 3 is together, the friendship is easy to handle. not that there won't be any quarrels. but its easier than a group of 8, 9 or 10 rite? more people means you need to accomodate more people. giving in and to care for more people, know more about their lives.. every person play a part in someone's life. it may not be important to you but it can be a small action that touch that person's heart.

why do people have best friends? cause they make an effort to go out with friend, take time out to care for them. like listening to troubles, be there at the lowest point.. all this result to strong friendships. =) if there's any miscommunication or unhappiness, thrash it out! words may be hurting and straight forward, but you can know how your friend feel. its better than keeping it all to yourself.. yeah.. share your problems. encourage one another, tell what is wrong and what is right.. try to be there for your friend eventhough he/she say its ok. he/she may not want you to see their weakest side.. tell them its ok. when your're there, he/she can sense the care and concern.. true friends sees the weakest part of you too! there's always up and down in friendship.

i'm so glad that i know my group of Bball friends. now there's 9 of us plus jun.. although everyone is not very close but we always try to meet once a month. meet up for every birthdays.. and when one of us meet with any prob, we try to solve it, try to talk it out.. it might not involve all but we will share within one another and help one another.

everyone of us in this group plays a part in this friendship so lets keep it going.. i know its a busy year for everyone but don't nglect your friend! =p i know that i'm not your very best friend but at least i'm one of your friend in life.. i won't know what your every problems are.. but if you just share little with me, i'll be happy, i can't be a good adviser but if you need a listener, i can try to be there.. if i'm not free, i'm sorry! but you can drop me a message and i'll contact you back..

its a long post.. shall end here for today.

i thank God for my bball friends: ana,su,jia,sock,annie,nan,emi,jun
-->friends, jiayou for your year. looking forward to our holiday =)
remember not to give up.. bitter follow by sweetness in the future

2008-06-18T23:19:00.002+08:00

finally get to blog after busy week.. no time to come online for last 2 weeks.

attended 2 wake last week. one was a leader's grandma frm my church. stay till ard 2 then back home wit char. another one was my fren, jia's grandma.. the last day of the wake make me remind of my grand ma.. cos the song 'shi shang zhi you ma ma hao' was played. sock and i teared.. just nice jia's grandma cremation place was the same as my grandma. and i can go visit my grandma at the same time. so miss my grandma.. although she nag at us but she look aft us since we were young. but ya, no matter what, everyone will leave the world when we're old. even if we grieve, there's a time to stop. if not, we wun move on..

i wouldn't wan it to happen agn. its so hard to move on.. been attending at least a wake every year since ah ma's death. but 2nd cremation tt i go other than ah ma de.. its so sad to see ur love one leaving.. u wun know when they're leaving so show ur care and love towards them so u wun regret. its something tt cannot be prevented so its gud tt u can be more fillial and not do anything tt will upset them. =)

the overnight at wake make me bond more wit jia's siblings. din know they're so funny. but ya they are nice ppl. her family too.. her aunt even rem me and ask whether i had eaten and stuff.. got chance ar.. haha.. rite Su? lolx.. reali scare me can. haha..

hmmm.. shall end here. blog more when i haf things to share.. take care ah, ah jia. its a hard time for you but we believe u can.. u nid time. =)

2008-06-06T18:38:00.002+08:00

had a great week. LOUD camp.. our house is the alphabat 'U'-name Ukida.. i din go for the first which is on mon cos nid go back office. went for the nite session and its great. abt our 5 spiritual senses. we got activity aft 12. go a few stations and to haf a sharin session.. get to know each other better.

2nd day was games lik captain's ball, food war, and build tent.. lolx. fun but tired. svc was better on 2nd nite.. got touch and tears filled many ppl's eyes. =)

3rd day is the last day. we got a activity lik treasure hunt to go ard semb to look for wat we are needed to find.. then telematch and our house won!! yeah.. aft telematch, we practise for our skit for our campfire on tt nite. cool! end ard 10 plus at nite then everyone was lik fighting for cab. slowly, the place is less crowded. but we(jun, annie, me) took bus to semb station then cab back to east. Wow.. haha..

was dead tired when i reach home.. bathe and go to bed. so now, im at home resting. charge my energy.. shall blog soon agn.

2008-05-22T23:32:00.004+08:00

just had a busy 2 days(tues,wed) at work without my partner. many things to do. do her things and my things too.. din even do my own stuff on tues. work till 7 plus then manage to only cut open the envelopes of the mail i need to key in. tired.. next week is gonna be my last week at work if the replacement come. i need rest man.. a little stress sometimes, worn out after work, cant go anywhere after work. tired..

i feel that i had become to another person.. more straight forward than before. is that good or bad? if you haf a good fren, you do wish he/she to be happy always. not thinking of the unhappiness.. frens are there to help you forget the problem. so im thankful for all the fren that i haf. =) im afraid that im not the fren that they can count on. i cant really help them when they're in need, dun really understand them.. dunno how to give advise or console. i can only listen and ask then not to think too much.. people are not perfect so we need to go through trials/obstacles to be able to grow to a more mature person..

when listening to worship song, few verse came to me..
Ps 91:2-I will say of the Lord,'He is my refuge and fortress; My God, in Him i will trust."
Vrs 9-11-->Because you have made the Lord, who is my refuge, Even the Most High, your dwelling place, No evil shall befall you, Nor shall any plague come near your dwelling; for He shall give His angels charge over you, To keep you in all your ways.

Lord, please guide me..

2008-05-20T22:37:00.002+08:00

sometimes people dunno what to do.. stucked and confused.. but they dun want to clear their doubt. why is that so? do they just hope that the solution or answer will fall from the sky? it never will. just ask and it can be clear.. yes people will scold you but they just want everything to turn out fine. but remember that no one is perfect!

i've been thinking.. if one day i drift away, let me be out to the world for a while. i may need to see the outside world and also to take a break at the same time.. aft awhile, i'll be back. if i'm stuck outside the sea with only a life jacket, let me swim on my own. i may rely on you too much if you keep coming to my rescue..

independent is something i hope i can be. sometimes i just cant stand lonely, need people to accompany me wherever i go, need people by my side to add noise into my life..(thats why people around me are always entertaining me) but somehow i can entertain people too. in the past, i dun even talk much..(improved)

knowing more is also one thing i want, more knowledge about the world, society, the people around me. people around me are always changing.. i should also change, not for the people around me but for myself and for the better but still the hweeying that people know. =)

2008-05-15T22:30:00.002+08:00

hello.. not been updating for quite sometime.. lazy and tired..

finally i haf something to write. just came back frm my holi at tioman.. went there with su, ana and annie. nice scenery and food over there.. sun-tanning over there. haha.. but i din got sunburn. my fren got burnt till red but onli my face is red. lolx..

had an adventurous trip.. went snorkelling and there's no lifeguard.. its swim at our own risk. lolx.. our days are so full and busy. bought things wherever we went to. haha.. more bags to carry back. thot our things will be lighter but end up more things.. a fruitful trip man. =) enjoyed the trip, got sunburn and now my face is still red.. oh man..

im so not looking forward to work. I WANT MORE HOLIDAY!! nvm.. i shall work then haf money to go holi. hope that everything will go well.. find a good pay job and be able to get back to studies soon.. working is so tiring.

im going back to my working life.. then haf a good weekend. =)

2008-04-17T22:16:00.003+08:00

Hmmm.. Decided to blog after so loong. If not its going to be a month since i update. Haha..

Few staff had left this month(sandy c, lee shan, yanghui) and few from other dept. So sad.. I'm quite close with the three that left. Lee shan and Yanghui is part of my lunch khakis and hangout group. Without them, the group is quieter now..

Seeing them leave, make me feel like leaving too. I've been on the lookout for job since feb but couldn't bear to leave cos of the peolple that i know there. Its lik i will feel very sad to leave cos its lik i see them 5 days a week and spend so much time with them... But i cant stay at this place for long. I got to move on and look for a better job(monthly pay) so that it will be more worth it..

I will be busy for this few weeks.. Dunno why not been feeling well for this 2 weeks too. Tink is the weather or mayb not enough sleep.. Been trying to sleep early and wake up early but my eyes just find it so hard to open in the morning. Haix.. Its ok.. I believe i can! =)

We're meeting on the 27th to celebrate Mrs Tiu bday.. So excited and looking forward. Haha.. Hmmm.. Do hope to be able to hear all the stories. Tink now i'm lik more closer to colleague then Su they all. Aiyo..

Shall update soon.. Cheers.. =)

2008-03-24T22:36:00.002+08:00

Yay.. Finally not tired to blog.

Easter had just past.. Had a busy and tired week. Went for 4 out of 6 service at expo. And watch the drama for 4 times.. Haha.. To gif support(Sock is one of the crowd so try to sit somewhere near her). Hehe.. The drama was nice.. Hmmm.. Quite happy that my colleague went with me for 1st svc on fri. Got to spend time more other then office hour..

Although i watch the drama for 4 times, but when the part where Jesus was nailed, its something that i dun reali wish to see. And our bball juniors came for the last svc.. So cool! Haha.. Great to the one who invite them(i dunno who invite them). Lolx..

I'm waiting for the bday celebration.. Haha.. Excited. Its the day where we can meet-up to chat about what happen recently and to share what happen to us. We always dun haf enuff time to talk.. And i always msg them till SOMEONE find me so naggy. Argh.. Its concern lo. Aiyo..

Hmmm.. Pastor is gonna talk about a new series next week. Hope that it will impact me and bring me to a greater level.. And i've been asking some funny questions recently.. Haha.. Shall not talk further. If not this will become a naggy blog le. Shall update agn..

Take care Friends.. =)

2008-02-18T22:00:00.002+08:00

Hello.. Had been busy for the past week. One week past so quickly.. Hmmm.. Valentines Day was the best day. ^_^

I spend my V-day with all my Beloved. Haha.. Plus me there's 7. If Nan and Jun were there then it will be 9.. But its ok.. We enjoyed too. Su, Jia, Sock and Me meet at 4 plus at MS for movie(CJ7..Woah!! Its nice. Embrassing Moment.. Hehe). There's already crowds at that time.. Movie end at ard 7 then went to meet Ana cause she lost her way. Hahaha(oops..) Then we walk to Hong Kong Cafe to meet Emi. While deciding what to eat, we waited for Annie to come. But, we order before Annie come. Haha..

Laughter and noise fill our tables like always.. And as usual, wherever we go, our group is the noisiest. People around us keep looking over. Guess our table make too much noise. But its our catch-up time so don't care.. Haha.. Its like we own the shop. Lolx.. Kidding..

After that, we went to walk around.. Jia went minitoons to buy present for her jc Bball mates.(Jia, where's ours? Haha..) Then Annie, Sock and I went charles and keith cause Annie Buy Bag for Me(Surprise?!).. Cause c&k got sales so she agree. Thanks Annie.. =)

After buying bag went minitoons to find the rest.(We went in seperate grp cause limited time) And i saw my cousin.. Heh heh.. She got a shock when i suddenly hold her arm. She thought who is it..(Funny)

Then off we go. Walk towards the mrt station and go home.. So sad. A short day. But at least we had a happy day =) How i wish the next time we meet will be longer and can do more things.. Looking forward to next month. Do you? ^_^

And saturday service was great. We learn about VALUES.. One of the value is accountability. To me i think its important as it can enable what impression you give to other people. For whatever you agree to, do it.. You have to take responsibility to what you agree.. Don't agree and end up not doing it or backing out last minute. Try your very best to finish the assignment given to you..

I want Havaianas 2006 Hibisco Green
(tink its the smallest size)
It may be a old design but i still like it
gifts can be given although its not any ocassion
*hint hint

2008-02-10T17:57:00.000+08:00

Harlo frens.. haha.. manage to find the time and energy to blog.

been quite busy. last few weeks was ok.. busy with many things and very tired. did not had a smooth week.. few things happen. better not talk in details if not it will be days and night. haha..

had a very fruitful svc last week.. Pst Tan preach a wonderful message. the last story leave a great impression in my heart. a sentence what Pst say-->"God saves us not for the sake of Winning the race but to Finish the race"(i like this sentence)

Endurance is the main point we learn. enduring hardship can make us mature.. the more we encounter the more we learn.. dun be afraid to face the danger. and purpose make one more endure.. if you have a target, you will be more endure and determine to fulfil something.
This message make me tink back about basketball.. Endurance and determination towards the competition. Tough training to endure and the determination to finish the run within the time.. Its all in the past.

There's no sat svc this weel due to CNY. Happy Chinese New Year.. =) and so we attend svc today. Pst Kong is back to share.. haha.. He share about Relationship between Couples..(why not frenship too?) heh heh.. Its something that we learn last year and its for all married couples and all yet to be married. haha..

It may not involve us right now but seeing those married couple re-newing their vows and so loving make us so envy. haha.. its a matter of time. lolx.. time is running fast and one is growing older.. when is my turn? haha.. *dreaming

V-day is coming.. will be meeting jia, su and the rest for movie and dinner. singles gather and meetup together to spend the day. haha.. shall update soon.
Take care everyone.. =)

mixed feelings

2008-01-20T01:10:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. finally find the energy to blog.. everything is ok this 2 week.

will be planning something something for new year.. hse visitation or movies.. need to further discuss.. hope tt we can celebrate it happily with each other. first time aft we know each other so long.. haha.. so excited. even if we dun haf time to go hse to hse we still can catch a movie or find a place to chill. we always haf never ending things to talk.. haha..

im so happy to be bless with good colleague.. i dun feel well on fri and i ask ard for some pills but nobody haf. and one of my colleague actually go down to the shop to help me buy. so touched! the pill reali help alot. make me feel so much better.. thanks.

message that char share on friday for cg was self-eseteem.. two question make me in deep thoughts. 'do you love yourself?', 'do you know your talents and weakness?'. i know that everyone is not perfect and there's bound to haf a weakness in each of us. talent is to be discover as u try new things as you walk down the road.. mayb my talent is not on the outward and not yet shown.. but 'love myself'.. hmmm.. i nid to think of reasons..

thinking is all i can do.. day is coming nearer and nearer..
faster come and let me know the truth..

2008-01-03T20:53:00.000+08:00

hmmm..
was at su's blog before i decide to blog mine. tink its quite sad for us not to be open with each other. can i like ask isit cos of the temper that each of us have? or all onli wan to share the good and not the bad? but why not share everything and lessen ur burden? actually im oso not veri open to all.. but i told few ppl.. been asking quite alot of questions lately. so su and jia say i naggy. lolx..

do what we say will come true? the holi and living tgt? its lik the group is getting smaller.. we are lik dragging and dragging. doing things last min.. we spend our last week of 2007 tgt. its fun and lote of joy.. but why do we onli share joy and not sadness and anger? atmosphere not right? mayb we shud have a heart-to-heart session? 2 or 3 share and the rest will open up i guess. have more faith and trust in frens.. frens can oso share burden..

the bbq was a sucess.. thanks to annie for the hse, thanks to ana and jia for gg to buy the stuff tgt, thank su for planning tgt, thank sock for the fish and sotong and thanks the rest for turning up to finish the food. =) im lik sitting there not doing anything lo. just plan and give money.. lik a 'tai tai'. lolx.. just hope i can be more of a help to ppl than a hindrance.

so frens, if u happen to read this post. do help to build the friendship up. if not when the hope is there and if the future we say dun come true.. disappointment is the biggest.. 'qi wang yue da, shi wang yue da'.. onli empty promises are there.. so why not build up the frenship stonger tgt.. =)

you guys brighten up my life.. mayb u all nv see me lose my temper before but i do haf my angry moments.. smile is all what we see.. sadness are kept in the heart. dun be.. share all so ppl will noe more abt you. don't let ur fren say dunno when ppl ask ur fren abt you.. =)

2007-12-27T23:26:00.000+08:00

decided to blog after for like 1 month plus.. been quite busy and lazy to write long entries. dunno what to blog too. hmmm..

been thinking alot recently.. thinking whether what have i achieve so far? what have i done to help the ppl ard me? and what kind of friend i am? im so curious about the last qn. i tink im ok with everyone but not having a real close fren.. not quarreling with fren can be a problem too.

went back sch for trg today and din play well when we're playing 5 on 5 with the B gals.. i just don't seem to be able to concentrate and miss many ball. im just so disappointed with myself la.train longer than junior but skill is not better than them.. even passing and receiving ball oso fail. *sigh* tink jia they oso quite pissed off.. i oso angry with myself. think im not suitable to play bball ba..

although we meet thru bball and we are in the same church, somehow i tink we are not veri close.. we know each other thru bball and din reali build up the friendship frm start. so with the age and oso frm wher we are studying, we have difficulty making the bond stronger..most of them like to keep things in their heart. and im oso thinking, is the bond strong enuff to withstand the problem given to us? just don't tink too much..

we are like going our own ways after sec sch.. afterall bball link us tgt. aft we graduate, our meetups are lesser and lesser.. friendship getting stronger and stronger? hmmm.. just let all be answered to me thru the Lord..

i shall be more faithful and be more open to You

2007-11-11T17:32:00.000+08:00

hey yo.. finally got the time to blog.. exam end on nov 6. im nw free frm exam. haha.. so hapi..

many things go on in tis one month.. we are in a new cg and the five(me,jia,jun,emi,sock) are seperated. jun and sock is in keeve cg while the rest stay wit char.. its a little unexpected but we nid time to get over. hmmm.. jux tt mayb we nid a longer time to be more closer. my teletubbies is reduce to 2 and my entertainer is left wit 2..jia is not in s'pore currently.. will miss her so much.

hmmm.. i found a job and will be starting tml. excited but scared of lonely(during lunch time) it is a 3 month contract wit AIA. hope everything will go smoothly. jux worried abt next mth.. got the camp and our chalet. hope im able to get the days off. shall update soon abt my work..

svc is great tis week wit pst ulf.. svc will oso be better next week wit pst phil. great word is being taught and we can make use of them everyday.

2007-10-14T22:35:00.000+08:00

hey halo.. finally find the 'time' to blog. been so lazy and busy. haha..

hmmm.. had our lst cg 2 weeks ago. the members are friendly.. its quite a new environment and wit many ppl. but cg was fun. we play cards before and after the meeting. jia was not present cos she got study break. quite sad without her cos we 5 always tgt.. haha.. went to 85 with char, sock, jun and char.. the rest went hm.

the other days are busy wit studying. spend my days with books, books and books.. sounds mad. haha.. but im so sad sometimes tt even a easy qn but i dunno hw to do. oh man.. nvm, practise more and i will be more familier with it.

jux had cg and svc again this week.. meet emily at inter to travel there. we are the first to reach among the 5. haha.. follow by jun and jia 'injured bird' oops.. but her leg look fat la. haha.. be more careful man. hmmm.. cg tt day, we was seperated. haha.. i and jia sit tgt while jun, emi and sock tgt. lik no diff la. onli change place but still tgt.. then aft tt jun, i and diana acc char go 85 to haf a light meal. and as usual jun and i order chicken wing to eat onli then char order western food. the delicious steak, yum yum.. but not hungry so jux eat chicken wing and share sugar cane juice.. haha..

hmmm.. went fellowship too after svc. we arranged to go bedok inter and AS USUAL we are the slowest. aiyo, we are lik slow poke lo. always so slow. haha.. then off we go to inter. got 3 table for ourself and off we go order our food. so char, keeve, sock and i wan prawn noodles.. then the stall which keeve and i wanted to order frm was diff. then he say the one he say is nicer while i say the another one is nicer. haha.. sounds funni. then i rememberd tt the one he mention is replace by another food alr but he was lik quite shock. so, we went to check it out. and true enuff it was closed.. and we order frm the other stall. then i eat the slowest again. haha.. we chat after eating and leave at ard 10 i tink. walk to inter wit joycelyn(izit spelled lik tis?hope i din spell wrong) and she saw her frens so she stop to and we saw weifen(spelled lik tis rite?) haha.. and we sort of talk abt tt matter then she say dun dare to tell him and she say he dunno. THANK GOD! aft tt both weifen and joycelyn went to take bus tgt. haha.. then i went to take my 196.

sunday, the day to meet yongsheng. hmmm.. he ask me to help him buy lunch and coffee. then jun oso ask me to help her buy the lemon chicken rice.. lucky i nv order. before tt i wan to check whether i haf enuff cash. but, i discover tt i din bring my wallet and hse keys too.. and i call jun immediately and ask her to save me cos i forget to bring wallet and she was laughing. lolx. after tuition i went hm then sit under my block for lik 3 hours plus. and one of the uncle thot wat happen to me y im not gg hm and i told him i forget to bring my hse key and was waiting for parents.. he told me its dangerous for me a gal to be alone in tt area cos got those dangerous man.. ya and im so hapi when i saw my parents.. so good to be hm. haha..

one reminder: rem to check ur bag before u go out. dun be like me, forget wallet and key. lucky i got jun wit me. imagine im alone? oh man..

2007-10-01T14:28:00.000+08:00

30 sept 2007 (sunday)
yest is the last cg meeting for E264.. no words can describe how sad we are. its lik a family wher all the members are gg to different place to work.. the atmosphere was not lik before as charlotte was talking to us. at the end of the meeting she was thanking us.. my tears jux fell. its so sad to part after being tgt for years.. why must we be seperated when we are starting to get closer and closer? is tis a sign for us to cherish each other before we go diff cg? although the few of us will still be wit char, the cg will not be the same. we will haf a new start, build a new cg.. we agree to meet up(for crabs) although we are seperated. meet xy to shop and meet fran to fellowship. i guess i cry the most.. cos i feel my eyes was swollen aft all tt.

we will be gg to diff cg tis week.. experience a new change. we might not meet up as often or not as close as before but we will try to meet up no matter what! when fran told us abt the card, i had lots of things to write to char. but when i see the card, i jux don't know what to write. its lik no words could describe how i feel.. i'm so touched for wat charlotte has done and that she's always there to help to solve our prob no matter how hard or complicated it is. although we come frm different background, the friendship is keeping us gg..

hmmm.. tink we'll be multiplying agn in dec. hope e 5 of us wun be seperated? can? im jux quite emo.. hope i'll be stronger and not cry so easily. sometimes i feel lik crying when i see ppl cry. oh man..

on sat when we are eating, we was chatting bout some stuff. then mr coke was lik asking 'if we all say no to the change, can we remain as E264'? how i wish.. but, we got to look forward. its smth that God has plan for us.

I WANNA BE STRONGER.. HAVE MORE CONFIDENCE AND BE MORE SPIRITUALLY MATURE.

*no matter how strong a person is, you will still need someone by your side to guide you..

2007-09-21T18:50:00.000+08:00

haha.. been quite lazy to blog. been viewing other ppl bog and saw those blog wher they sell their clothes and accessorise. wow.. some are quite nice. price are quite reasonable but i cant spend so much cos got few top buy le hvn wear. haha.. hope i can faster buy a jeans skirt to wear. lolx..

hmmm.. meet my beloved yest for sushi. belated jun's bday..
we always had lots to catch up. went hm at ard 9.. we was lik 7 vs 1(annie). haha.. but we was lik trying to persuade her to go to the right and straight path.

and thats when we talk about definition of fren.. i jux feel so free with them.. can jux let my tears flow. im jux hapi. haha.. duno why nowadays quite emo. cant control my tears eh.. tink stress. hmmm.. yeah we MUST have a chalet man and babe. enjoy ourself to the fullest and dun waste the money we spend..

I WANNA DO WELL FOR MY O.. MY FATHER WILL BE LOOKING OVER ME. =)
*hope that dream wun come true.. me and my spelling error. oh man..

dino07

2007-09-07T01:35:00.000+08:00

oh man.. too busy wit work and studies. so quite tired and lazy to blog..
but its diff this week. got a event which just past.--LOL(Living Out Loud)
yes man its my church event. tired but quite fun..

im appointed to meet all the frens.. yes challanging job cos to make sure they reach on time and make them feel in place, not left out. lucky jun was there to help me if not i will be alone.. im hapi that annie came. =)
so far she din wan to come, giving 'reasons'. haha.. but she made it tis time. yay.."claps". we are in the yellow team, got to wear yellow so off i go vivo to buy. and i bought the simsons shirt. nice but as i tink back its quite childish. lolx..

aft the sentosa event, we travel to YMCA for short svc.. haf a short praise and worship then short message and end at 9 plus. went to eat dou jiang you tiao.. haha.. but the soya bean milk there is nice. =)
lsft at ard 11 then hurry hm.. tired, got work the next day.. haiz..
we;re having part 2 on sat. hope annie will come back and that everything will go on smoothy..

more rest for me will be my greatest gift. aft exam i shall sit back and relax for awhile before work..

dino is here...

2007-08-15T20:52:00.000+08:00

been too busy to update. so lazy to type so many words..

few words to describe my life.. busy, tired, stress wit exam. its drawing near. in 2 months time.. i regret so much not re-taking chinese. if not i can haf a better grade to the sub.. haix.. but its over. jux got to concentrate and get good grades for the other sub..

2007-07-24T00:50:00.000+08:00

had the usual routine for last week..
work, hm, revision and hmwrk. quite busy as the exam is approaching.
its lik 2 mths away.. i can alr sense the stress.
i guess eating is my way of releasing stress. been eating more then usual..
guess im growing in weight. got to find a day to go work out man..
cannot keep eating le. haha..

enjoyed myself this few days. celebrations and services..
had cg pm on sun instead of our message.. then off to white sand mac to meet ys for maths. was quite slow in doing all the qns.. hm at 7 plus 8 with more tys qns.

Monday
23rd july- today is my fren bday..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOCK HWEE
work in the morning then went hm to do some things b4 meeting the rest.
meet nan at 4 plus 5 then off to suntec first. haha..
chck out nydc but food quite limited to us so i inform sock.
then nan and i went searching for the choc factory..
finally found it then 1 each for us. sock arrive at tt time and one for her.
aft tt off we went to nyny. decided to change our venue aft few choices..
su was the first, us then emily. and we got our seat. haha..
while waiting for others, we chat and considering whether to order anot.
when jun msg say she jux baths finish, we decide to order first. haha..
as usual, chat and laugh while eating.. and of cos, PICTURES. =)
jia din manage to join us cos of sch stuff. nvm, we still rem you.. hehe..
its a nice celebration and i laugh till my mouth was so tired.
haha.. its fun todae..

hope we'll meet up soon wit jia and coach. then it will be our one family.. =) all of us miss coach lots, din see him for a long long time. hope he miss us too.. gonna go slp. tired aft a long day outside..

dinoying here at 115am

2007-07-14T00:53:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder..
why are ppl so hapi while i cant reali express my happiness
why izit i have fear towards you instead of respect
its not beyond my control
cry all out and will feel better

sometimes i feel ashame of myself
why izit that at my age im still taking o level
why cant i be pursuing my passion at this age

i will strive towards my dream and goal and not let myself down
less excuses and be more independent
work less and concentrate more =)

2007-07-07T23:28:00.000+08:00

oh its such a nice date todae. 07/07/07.. haha.. busy wit work and studies. rushing for time.. exam was so near tt im rushing(more like speeding). lolx.. was so book the whole week tt i din haf time for myself. a more quiet place for me please.. hse was too noisy and the 'air' was so argh..!!

how could i say no in a better way?
its seems like there's no way i can say no with the way you asked.
its like i too wanna have a rest.
i know i did not commit much but can you spare me?
hope i can have a more peaceful time ahead.

its alr the start of the other half of the year.. drown myself in studies and enjoy aft everything. gonna enjoy then.. smiles.

cheer up and be hapi everyone.
dun be sad just because of a person..
someone may fall for ur smile..

dun wish to be sad
dinoying

2007-07-01T22:55:00.000+08:00

been working the whole of last week. done some somework but at a veri slow pace.. seeing ppl so busy and im so free make me feel so out.

wanna meet emily and sock to shop at town on fri actually but got to work last min so cant go le. sad.. mayb arrange another time with them plus jun and the rest. haha..

worked at factory for a few days last week. cos father hvn take pay and oso mum din wrk much so gotta help to wrk.. its lik there's many politics prob there. OT and CPF not taken and basic pay onli take 20%.. end up company ppl not gg to wrk. then ppl there are oso diff frm the past.. some act lik they are the leader, dun speak wit BRAIN. esp tt guy.. idiotic. im not one who u can gif order to. jux hope ur sch faster start and u off u go.

made few more frens there. they are funni and nice to talk to.. and i learn tt most of them is frm simei ite. a ite near me. haha.. many fren frm tt ite. 1st july, gst rising. having s'pore sale now too.. hope it wun affect much so tt i can go shop. update soon.. =)

2007-06-23T02:36:00.000+08:00

i just thought of you when i was out eating..
you just came to my mind all of a sudden..
how are you doing..
are you the same as before
can we meet up when you're free

bits and pieces of the past came to my mind..
i just couldn't stop my mind from thinking about you
i thought i'm able to withstand anything
but i'm not as strong as i think
i still need someone by my side to support me

i'm the eldest so i need to shoulder all the responsibility
everything is drop onto my shoulder
when can i lessen my burden and have a happier life
i'm happy but i feel that sometimes when i laugh or smile,
tears are forcing ways out of my eyes
its like quite emo and i can cry anytime

i want to be the happy me and not having to think of all sort of trouble
right now just want concentrate on studies, get into the course i want
i'm already 2 grades away so waste no more time

2007-06-21T01:16:00.000+08:00

been too busy and tired to blog.. jux went straight to bed as soon as i reach home. was so tired..

started work at my m industrie. haha.. its a nice job.. can noe abt the pattern of the clothes, noe how ppl normally work. but work 3-4 days per week cant earn much too.. wanna find another job but got to study and oso find time for revision and more.know few ppl over there.. dunno why although its a holi, there's still not much ppl. so our time pass quite slow..

2 weeks past so fast. work, study and out with frens.. so busy that i dun haf extra time to sleep. jux went to a wake on mon and tues nite.. din slp on tues nite. onli manage to go cousin hse for a rest then back for the funeral. its at mandai, soo far.. witness the whole thing agn.. missing my grandma. there's no control over my emotion..tears are ready to flow out but i refrain it as the family need more care and i too nid to extent my concern..

after that went home then bathe and odd to work. was so so tired can.. nvm.. those new arrivals made my nite new. then not much ppl agn. chat wit the staff working beside me.. chat bout life and past. then off we went at 10pm sharp. haha.. and before that tried a tube dress, so cute. its onli $15, cos aft discount, its cheap.. and i alr reserve a tube dress beforehand. seems like that i like this type of clothes.. haha..

gonna sleep le.. so tired now. working agn ltr in the evening.. so will wake up early to study a little before work. =) hope there is more sale tml and we can break our record. jia you.. meeting sam on mon to buy slip shoe cos mine spoil so looking forward.. will update soon.

ying here at 155am

2007-06-04T02:29:00.000+08:00

been veri veri busy for the week.

start on my first job on tues, 29th of may. was late few mins cos i went to take passport size photo then was delayed.. was excited abt work in the first place but then regretted working there. din touch f&b for a long time. and place was different to my previous waitress job.. so naturally the things will be different. i was actually allocated to help the counter, but the supervisor say im slow then ask me to help outside. its lik quite disappointed. the manager dun seem to lik me too. nvm.. dun care abt it. i jux do my job and hm i go. end at 11 then delivery for my meal. hungry and tired..

thursday
went for svc in the morning frm work at wed nite then got bball 3 on 3 for emerge. din get the first.. second was alr not bad. then off to parkway to meet phy, xueyi and rest.. i go there asap. even take cab when i haf not enuff money. haix.. when i reach their face was lik not veri happy. say they waited for me for 1 hour plus. but i did told them i wun reach so early.. since its my fault then i jux accept it. reach hm at 7 plus.. can even go for emerge la. emotions surrounding me tt day.. feel so tired, sad, angry, fustrated, stress, moodless, disappointed.. slp at 8 plus tt day. thot of lying down but wen i woke up its lik middle of the nite. everyone sleeping le.. first time slp so early. guess im reali veri tired..

friday
went svc in the morning. actually meet ys for maths aft svc but was not feeling so well so change to sun aft svc 2.. work agn tt day. was even worse.. tink they reali dun lik me. wanna tell the manager abt schedule but he was lik 'go inside and check'. nvm.. there were empty cups to be clear. i ask the customers but they say to be clear ltr. then the supervisor say 'don't care wat they say. if you see any empty cups/jug, jux clear them' so who's wrong and who's right? dun even know whether is the customer still there.. and they ask to clear the table.. can forget abt this job. will be having another job on monday. same job as S and E.. tink will be happier there.

saturday
went for captain's ball game. din get into the next round.. no mood to play i guess. as in the feel is not there? haha.. quite fun tt day. meet jia and nan to watch the bball game between s'pore and taiwan.. liu gen hong was 1 of the player of taiwan too. in the end, s'pore won.. haha.. nice game. although my team din get into next rounds for cap ball, ana's team get first.. they defeated south i tink. haha.. nice game and congrats. bring glory to east.. was hapi being wit them. =)

aft that went hm lie a while then meet S and E go chalet. cant go nite svc.. oversleep then meet S a little late. went to eat ban mian then wait for E.. off to buy bubble tea then meet E to chalet. we are lik veri da pai.. ppl go on their own but the organizer go to inter to fetch the 3 of us. haha.. had a 'fun' time there. atmosphere weird.. off at 1130pm. no 31 when reach bedok mrt ststion stop. so cab back wit S.. 2 person share cheaper. hehe..

sunday
meeting 1130am at foyer 3. was late cos stay up to do maths.. cant i jux get up early? always making ppl late. mayb the day im early may be the day when there's a miracle.. quene was long. manage to get in and sit wit cg. thot our seats will be given up.. the drama was cool and nice. YEAH!!! haha.. aft tt was suppose to meet ys but no time. gotta queue for s8 and oso in merge mood.. went to get a quick bite then went to queue. its so long.. ppl are not walking but pushing. like gg chinatown then u no nid walk, ppl push can le. quite irritated.. there's this gal who lik keep leaning towards me. when i move she almost fall.. sock and i was lik 'is this gal ok? is she sick?' and she stand so near me. argh..!! got another person squeeze in then i tell sock why wanna cross dun wan say excuse me. tink i say too loud cos the 2 gal stop half way.. but its lik quite suffocating.

get in and we sit at delta arena.. haha.. view not bad. svc start few mins before 5pm.. many things gg on. end at ard 10.. 5 hours of svc. great time.. all my nites i place on the last day. was soo lucky i can go on sunday.. then rush to meet su and ana they at foyer 3. pass emily her veri belated present then off we go.. they got sch the next day and its oso lik ard 11 plus. scared no bus..

thats wat i do for the past week. hope to haf more wonderful week ahead..
start work on mon hope to be able to adapt it asap.. nid to plan my schedule. =) i wish to spend time wit all my frens. divide time equally.. hehe.. nan is playing for youth cup.. will try to fix a time to support her match. oso to watch other teams play. its been time since i last saw a bball match or play bball.. time to let go? i still haf the passion.

hwee ying updated at 0130am

2007-05-30T02:56:00.000+08:00

hmmm..
having a veri busy schedule tis week. studies, work, out and church..
plan all already then my cousin manager tell me my schedule onli on mon. when is lik im working the next day..
argh.. my whole week is half spoil.
when im on my way to wrk on tues, sock mgs me say we're still in the bball game. thurs 130pm gotta be there.. then plan spoil agn..
got celebration on tt day. nvm..
been trying to fix time eat sushi but cant. so sad..
they manage to fix into my time. aft my game den i go join them..
thanx.. they will go sing then wait for me to haf meal. haha..
they will be starving man.. fri got work at my cousin there.
cant go emerge. so sad.. i onli manage to push away sunday's work..

next week start will be a busy week agn. work and studies..
YES..! my course. here i come.. more motivation for me please.
im gonna haf 2 part time job starting next week..
for fees, own benefit and if possible help parents too.
im tired nw le. will blog agn soon.. =)

2007-05-22T00:55:00.000+08:00

been busy recently.. had attend 2 veri session.
its was veri meaningful.. was touched and teared..
been thinkin a lot aft the 2 session.
will be changind my mindset too..

will be busy this week. gotta spend more time on my maths..
progressing too slow le. argh..!
dear lord, please let me find a part time job soon..
don't wish to rely on parents much.

will update when im free.

2007-05-13T00:23:00.000+08:00

been busy for the week..
work on mon and tues. wed stay hm rest.. thurs and fri study.sat svc then sun study agn.. woah.. get good grades for sure. see ppl ard me are busy with mid-year exam.. mi onli can study, no exam. haix.. nvm.. got more time to study and can get papers frm them to do too. hee..

chinese o is coming veri soon. saw few frens veri anxious.. i tell them,'chinese is veri easy to score'. haha.. but i onli get B3 last tym. so sad. cause never study.. if i spend more tym, might get an A. sad..

nvm.. will work hard for my future. gotta go le. will blog soon..

2007-05-04T00:12:00.000+08:00

frens are there for us no matter wat happen. to share out happiness and sorrow.. but y do fren onli share their happiness and not sorrow? frens are who u choose on ur own and u got to believe them.. u befren them for who they are so shud know how they feel wen u see ur fren.. wat happen to frenship wen u haf nth to talk abt? take the first initiative if you wanna know more.. do keep them company wen they're in need. don't let them feel nglected or hard to trust you..

im not consider a veri gud fren. cant be there for my fren when they are in trouble.. cant help to solve. im oso not veri open.. scared to take the first initiative for fear of rejection. betrayed before so hard to trust.. all i can do is hand everything to God. all i can do is to work on my own and work hard towards the target.. more motivation needed. all As is what i hope for.. ^_^

2007-04-21T23:55:00.000+08:00

been too lazy to blog.. haha..
hmm.. easter was great. went for 3 out of 5 services. drama was nice too. the songs are touching.. it worth to be watching but at the last svc was quite tired tt i almost fall aslp. aft last svc, went for lunch den off to tm to look for top to serve in BH's choir the following week.

meet up wit su, sock and nan watch movie on the mon. 9th.. watch 'the reaping'.. was quite nice. theatre filled wit sock's scream. haha.. a enjoyable show. hmmm.. by the time show end, time to go hm.. again they alight and im alone all the way back hm. hee..

thurs
meet up wit S and E.. celebrate E de belated bday. as usual meet up at aljunied mrt den as usual late. haha.. reach town at 2 plus and was drizzling.. dey had umbrella but mine spoil so got to share.. went to haf lunch at chicago den off to sing k-box. dine at BK for dinner den went hm.. reach hm quite early tt day. haha.. we are good girl. =)

next day, went to apply for job at town. write application form den off to far east to eat.. aft that off to parkway to shop den walk hm. gud form of exercise eh? hehe..

saturday
its a wonderful weekend of the yr.. meet nan to buy top for the event den off to SIS to report. reach there at ard 415 den mark attandance and off we go in the stadium.. had rehearsal den start sve at the exact time. in the middle, Benny Hinn arrive and join the choir to sing.. wow.. wonderful. choir was blessed several time and 3 quarter of the stadium is blessed too. svc ended at close to 11. off hm to rest and serving agn the next day.. meet nan and ana den cab there frm kallang mrt. late for 15 mins agn.. meet su on the way but she's waiting for fren so nv go wit us. svc start at 4 todae and we choir had to put make-up.. mine was light and ana help to touch up.. BUT, quite thick to mi ar.. haha.. nvm.. aft tt off to eat at inter wit su, nan and jun. a quick meal as its late and was tired. su and jun had sch the next day too..

tis week, manage to wrk for the first day on thurs.. weather been hot recently. nvm.. means more bubble baths.. as usual, svc on sat and its pastor derek. haf cg on sun and maths tuition.. oh my, haven start on algebra.. so kan chiong lo. haha..

shall update asap. gotta go. sheers.. =)

2007-04-05T14:25:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. been stayin hm tis few days. din manage to wrk much cos wen im free, there's no wrk and wen im not free there's wrk waiting for mi. haix..its like rotting at hm. but nvm, i haf my own tym to study for o that i retake.. gotta plan my time well and study hard.. there's onli 6 more mths to go.. o starts at oct tis yr.. ppl've been askin mi.. wher do i wanna go aft tt? wat i wanna do in e future? but i dunno. i realize i dun haf a goal or dream. wat can one do when he or she dosen haf a goal/dream? i hope to know as time past so i can plan my future. i jux wish to haf a better flat, have a better life wit my family.. they're aren't any younger.

went for qing ming todae.. wanted to rest hm but decided to go wit my parents and aunt. was so crowded and hot there. saw mum red eyes when she was praying to ah ma.. feel like crying too. but i cant.. gotta be strong and protect her. sometimes i feel as thou im gonna explode/ breakdown anytime.. keepin everything and not letting out. wanna find someone to talk but dunno how to start or who to talk.. mayb i dun wan someone to share my burden.. lik wen ppl are busy and haf their own troubles.. dun wan to trouble them too..

did let out some of my sorrows but not all so i guess i have to choose e other way. wanna concentrate on my o and my fees at e moment..

easter service is starting tml all the way till sunday.. hope that my frens will come. yup.. so thats all. will update aft easter.

2007-03-30T03:08:00.000+08:00

been too lazy to blog.. nth much to write too..

had emerge preliminary last sat on the 24th.. got into finals with the other 2 teams.. hmmm.. aim to get first. YESH!! we can do it.. believe and we can do it. was veri hot that day.. not in the mood to play cos had to wait quite sometime. hmm.. had a small dispute of the last yr champ 3on3 bball. in the end, everything was settled.had shocks on that day.. was laughing throughout.. haha.. fun, hot and tired. aft tt went to eat prata den back to east side. took 67 but was hot and stuffy at the back.. nvm.. was lucky there was seat halfway.

reached bedok inter den went to haf a drink b4 leaving. so refreshing.. regretted not gg there eat. so many delicious food.. yum yum.. den off to jun's hse to bathe cos she scared i'll b late for svc.. we reach there a few mins early.. phew..!! sl attended too.. hapi.. aft svc had choir prac. ended early if not i'll fall aslp. full dress rehearsal on 30th..gotta buy the clothes..

tuesday
celebrated emily's bday. off we went to airport's fish and co. the food there not bad. haha.. again we are like the limelight of the place. nvm.. we chat, eat and joke.. it seems like we can never chat finish.. too much to catch up. hee.. reached hm at 10 plus.. bathe, online den off to bed..

the next day, was prepared to wrk but agent say enuff ppl le. haix.. jux 1 extra day and its not even left for me..

thurs
went for lunch and went searching ard for the clothes.. couldn't find any nice de. hmmm.. reach expo for pm on the time. ended at 10plus.. wow.. a great one!!

gonna rest as much as i can todae.. haf to travel to jurong west ltr. hope there's someone who is willing to acc me to look for the clothes.. hard.. shall end here.. update soon.. =)

2007-03-18T01:43:00.000+08:00

been too busy too blog.. hmmm..
had not been workin much.. busy gg out, spending money.. ending up onli workin 2 days for e first half mth. which means onli 132 dollars. haix.. if onli i haf a rich bf. haha.. lolx. nid to get back to wrk le. spending and not earning is terrible..

slp quite a lot wen did not wrk. wen i went back wrk was told to fold box on 1st day.. hand so pain.. ouch.. jux had to bear wit it no matter how. no other job wit gud pay, had to eat on my own too! try to engage more in church stuff but was quite tired sometimes.. took part in benny hinn choir.. didn reali noe my singing was quite bad. oops.. haha.. was quite alone for e first practise. lucky for ting2 frm cat's cg.. 2nd prac nv go cos too tired le.. char say next prac on mus go.. dun wori will de.. wanna haf my bs too.. hwee ying jia you!!

joined bball 3on3 for emerge.. dunno gt captains ball for mi ma.. haha.. hope its not e same as last yr.. tis yr will b a greater yr.. yeah..!! hmmm.. jux celebrate su bday on e past tues(13th march). went to eat at airport swensens.. had an enjoyable dinner, saw mrs hua, took quite a lot of pics and went to e viewing mall. haha.. we look as if its our first tym gg airport. chat abt gg overseas tgt. hope we can go tgt.. believe and we will move towards it. yeah.. haha..

hmmm.. emi's bday coming.. gotta plan le. haha.. go haf our own place agn. shall decide asap and inform e rest. e nite we spend tgt was short.. gonna check more abt e trip and update wit e rest. haha..

c u all soon.. take care.. =)

2007-03-02T01:28:00.000+08:00

did i not reali let go of him wen i say so?
is he still in my heart?
i guess so.. he will haf a special place in mie..
hw do u define let go?
hw to noe whether haf u let go tt person?
am i reali a person who dunno hw to tink?
do i judge myself or i allow others to?
been questioning myself many times..
its not tt i dun wanna let go.
even though i dun lik him le, he still haf a place in mie..
if i start to tink, my tears will flow lik river..
hard to find someone to turn to..
many things happening ard mi..
m i jux putting up a brave front in front of my fren?
no matter hw strong a person is, dere will always b a weak side..
happiness is not cos of oneself but cos to hide e troubles..
hide or escape? speechless..
who can answer my doubt.?
simple and peaceful life is wat all i wish for..
im slowly letting go everything and to start my life anew..
to haf a better life and not to regret in da future..

2007-02-25T22:18:00.000+08:00

been sleepin at hm for new yr cos cant spend my new yr.. hmmm.. watch movie for e week, went shopping and slack. s'pore is quite small tt we cant even tink of anywher to go. bored..

went online to submit application for ite on wed. results will onli b release on 13th of march. so scared lo.. gotta pray tt i can get in. miss sec sch days a lot.. went back wrk on thurs. was feeling a little sian cos phy was not dere. nobody entertain mi.. tired e nite cos was aslp at tt time for e past few days. no mood to talk at wrk.. but try to talk a little. haix..

fri was jux normal. go went but was more fun cos phy gt wrk. someone can acc mi.. but im at e front and she's at e back. bored and tired, almost fall aslp lo.. lolx.

sat
wake up at 2 plus for svc.. reach early for tis yr i tink. always been reachin on time or late. meet up wit jun and jia at foyer 3. bought hotdog bun to eat.. den meet fren to bring her in.. aft svc went hm den out to pw meeting phy and fren. went hm at 7 in e morning..

sun
went for combine cg outing at pasir ris park at 3 plus 4. start of by forming into 5 grp. i was seperated frm e rest of dem.. next was to tink of grp cheer. hmm.. den we start wit game lik amazing race. 6 stations.. its seems tt my grp is e onli grp tt is running. lolx.. finding e helper cos dey keep walking abt. was e first grp to finish and gt to wait for e other 4 to finish.. grumbles was heard. aft tt we were told to search for 'treasure' near e beach.. e last 1 was hard to find. but found it in e end. went off at 6 plus cos gonna haf mean wit family.. hardly had a weekend wher we dun haf wrk.

char told mi tis is e last cg outing le. cos will multiply soon.. so gotta cherish e last few services tgt. try to fellowship tgt aft svc and to go out if possible. hmm.. been feeling a little moody tis few days.. dun wanna tink of anything, jux wanna stay hm and take a rest. hope i can faster get rid of e moodiness.. ^_^
march is coming next week. hope to meet up wit u guys on e 1 week holi.. c ya guys soon. *cheers

2007-02-19T02:00:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. took many off tis week. went nite shooping wen shops are getting ready to close. so gotta rush here and there. lolx..

celebrate vday wit coach and rest of e team. had a great dinner.. i was almost late for lik an hour. so sry guys.. but den was glad seeing al of dem. took several pics den wait bus wit dem.. den off to meet phy and reat to pasir ris park. blow wind, chat chat.. haha.. fun nite on tt day.
cab hm at ard 3 plus..

next day, couldn't get up on time for svc 1. so sad lo.. i set alarm at 230 but cant even hear it ring. haix.. den by e time i wake up its alr 6 plus 7 le. off to wrk cos mum say i've not been workin much tis wk so go wrk.. but its quite tiring to wrk tis few days cos slp veri less. nvm.. shall charge on chinese new yr den.

went shoppin on fri.. go town, shop tis and tt den bought few things. haha.. aft tt watch late movie den went bugis to meet fonnis and yvonne. eat den chat awhile and off hm.

sat
its chinese new yr eve.. haha.. ppl go for reunion dinner. went to temple in e morning to pray to grandma. *miss her so much. so sad.. chat wit cousin awhile den went hm. went for steamboat buffet at ard 12 and eat till 3. so full lo.. den slp and went chinatown for fireworks in e nite. countdown..!! haha.. was so squeezy lo. but e firework is nice..

sun
hapi chinese new year.. went hm at 6 plus in e morning cos wait for e midnight charge to end. hmmm.. off hm to slp. wake up at 1 plus 2 for lunch den back to slp. wake up at 7 plus, wanted to go out but in e end nv go. haha.. keep delaying lo. conf but still no outcome..

gotta faster plan le. haha.. time nw is 240am. gotta go slp le.. update soon. enjoy den.. bye. =)

2007-02-12T11:18:00.000+08:00

been too lazy to blog.. out tis few nites wit frens.. was tired wen i reach hm and lay str8 on bed.. haha..

went back on trg on tues (6th feb). had fun and oso seen our junior.. its totally diff frm e way we train in e past. cant blame cos dey're new comers and some dunno hw to play bball. hmmm.. had frenly wit dem and discover tt few of dem are quite gud. haha.. bright future ahead. aft tt went inter pizza to celebrate jia's bday.. slack, chat a while den i leave early.. but gt take a few shots.. yeah..!!

went for rebonding e next day. haha.. but den, was so painful lo. say my hair dry den spoil. i noe, but den its veri pain.. first tym do for such long hours. 4 plus till almost 11.. lolx.. den went to eat dinner aft tt.. was lik ard 1230 wen i reach hm.. haha.. den use com and off to bed, veri tired..

wen i go wrk e next day, my workin fren say e outcome not so gud.. ask mi call e person and go back do. but, veri paiseh leh.. and oso i dun haf e num.. onli sam gt and nid to wait for her to call.. sian.. nid to bear wit it.. wen i wash my hair, e smell was so terrible lo.. feel lik fainting in e toilet. gonna dip my hair in perfume le. lolx.. haha..

out agn on sat nite. went svc on tt day. den off to meet my parents to malaysia for dinner.. reach s'pore at ard 1 plus 2 den went kembangan to meet fren.. cycle rd, eat & chat den off hm at 6 plus 7 in e morning. not fully recover frm cough yet.. haix. cant eat my choc.. wrk on sun nite.. quite fun but a little no mood cos few of us was not feeling well. lose of appetite oso.. will get back myself soon.. haha..

hmmm.. kkz.. gonna go take a rest le. jux end wrk.. will update soon. vday is coming.. waiting for e day to arrive.. missing all of you.. =)

2007-02-04T00:05:00.000+08:00

did not blog for lik 2 weeks.. was busy workin, slp and out wit frens..

did not wrk so decide to blog. haha.. jux been workin tis 2 weeks and went to watch b division match at ahs. 5 schs in e grp.. consist of bvs, cch, ms, bts, bg and ess. did manage to get in 2nd rd.. cos lost to ms. wat a wasted match.. not tt our sch are score loser but duno y dey did not play well tt day. 4 free throw and did not get in.. few lan di nv get in oso. and 3 out of e 5 main player couldn play halfway.. wat's e meaning of tis? 1 sick 2 cramp.. nv do warm-up? watever.. its over.. but wat we was not hapi is tt.. y mus our sch always get tt stupid refree? he had 4 eyes yet he cant c e foul? we can forget abt e gals match, but its so obvious in e foul yet he didn't blow. wonder hw he get his license. it seems tt e organizer did it in purpose.. was so pissed off tt day.. argh..!

aft e match waited for coach.. thot of gg to eat wit him but he gt to go for trg. nvm, 6th feb.. =) can tell tt he's sad and dissappointed.. he had predicted tt e match will b gone by e way e boys behave. so sad for coach, his hopes is being washed away once agn.. su and e rest went tm while i went to look for workin fren.. aft tt went hm den off to wrk.. quite tired tt nite. nw wrk den can off for chinese new yr. gonna buy many stuff.. clothes den do my hair.. hmmm.. but nid to see whether gt enuff cash. write till here.

feelings can b shown out as tym past..
i unds hw u feel le..

2007-01-24T04:14:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. did not wrk on e past weekend agn.. was bored stayin at hm.. had svc on sat but couldn't get up. jun call mi and i say im awake but i went back to slp. too tired le.. jun, thanx for calling and sry for not being able to get up. i confirm gg nxt svc.. gg to take off..(e day SHE having concert) hehe.. den sun went for cg in e noon at admirlty end at ard 4 plus. went bedok inter wit jun and went hm at 8 plus.. its nice although onli dere's 2 of us and its onli bedok inter. but we chat quite a lot.. haha.. u noe i noe can le.
noe wat? missing u all.. e tyms we spent tgt at trg or at outside. e tym spent is not easily forgot.. we go out on v day k? single grp..

monday
wanted to go watch e boys match but dunoo y wake up den go back slp agn.. jux wanna stay hm.. becoming pig soon le. haix.. den as usual went for wrk in e nite. wrk was fun as usual.. being bombed wit severals qns tt nite. jux ans watever dey ask.. haha.. ya, teach u all play bball someday. end wrk late in e morng.. nvm.. had fun till e last min. haha.. den off to eat den hm to slp.

tuesday
msg coach abt e result and noe tt e match did not turn out well. haix.. its alr over.. hope dey play well for e rest of e match. receive msg frm agent at 4 plus sayin no wrk cos onli 1 line. xueyi will b bored le. so sian.. 1 day wrk 1 day no wrk. nvm.. rest well and go wrk to haf fun. haha..

was blogging at midnite nw.. thinking abt some stuff.. am i being too cruel and heartless? haix.. im sry for being too harsh. i jux cant help it.. i oso hope to haf someone by my side.. but, i jux find it hard to open up to guys. nid tym.. at my age, i dun find short-term r/s oso. once agn, sorry..
jux cant get him out of my mind.

2007-01-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

been too tired to blog.. finally had e feeling and smth to blog..

did not wrk last weekend cos dere's no stock i guess. hmmm.. went for svc on sat den went to BK eat.. its so filling. haha.. den slp till sun den went out wit workin fren to watch movie at ms.. e show is funni, its name 'kungfu majong'. aft tt went ard lookin for toilet.. haha.. went esplanade to slsck for a while den walk to ecp.. walk for 2 hr plus and reach at 4 plus.. adventure along e way.. its so fun, first tym..

reach ecp, went mac to rest and eat.. leg quite tired and hungry aft walkin e whole nite.. haha.. den aft tt went to e rock to wait for sunrise.. while waitin, was talkin abt tis interesting topic.. OMG!! cant believe.. but nvm.. had to absorb.. den duno y.. dey keep climbing den i fall frm e rock.. lols.. pi gu kai hua le.. den chat till 8 den went hm.. had a fun nite. hee..

den as usual wrk in e nite.. mon wrk till tues morng den went hm slp for a while and went for b boys match playin wit bedok town. as expected, dey won but did not meet e pts given by coach.(14-47) dey are to hit 50 pts.. diff of 3 pts and dey are punished.. 3 runs outside sch and 150 de lan di.. wanted to train but halfway thru it rain den dey say i brought e rain tgt wit mi. so sad.. aft tt coach treat us eat cos he's oso hungry. haha.. al of us order western food. dere's onli 5 of us. coach, ana, su, nan and mi.. coach eat 2 share cos he's too hungry.. haha.. went off at 6 plus cos dere's wrk at 8.. was havin a hard tym at wrk.. tired and not feelin well oso.. mayb cos get caught in e rain and nv bathe immediately..

wanted to go trg to help out but i rem e days wrongly.. thot thurs is wed and fri is thurs.. make my mind confuse.. argh..!! went to wrk on wed was oso bad.. havin terrible headache halfway thru e nite.. slp immediately aft i get back lo. haha..

haix.. e day i went for trg.. its nice going back trg. but, y do i hear things which i dun wan to? is tis reali wat u wan.. effort put in is denied by u? i noe u are veri tired of it, but can u gif dem e 2nd or last chance.. its reali sad to hear tis.. building up den crashing al away agn.. dey are our hope.. we can reali fork out e tym and energy to help out.. i noe dey wun b wat u expect but can u at least gif it a try??

*miracles do happen.. we got to wrk hard for it at e same tym oso..
jia you.. we will help to make coach proud. =)

2007-01-12T10:44:00.000+08:00

morninggg..
feelin a little tired but jux decide to blog a little.. xueyi say milo comin wrk tonite.. oOoo.. so excited. lookin forward to her returning wrk. hmmm.. i miss her and she miss mi. haha.. gt companion acc mi chat le. e line will b more lively tonite. =) mus not b late or else cant b in xueyi's line. hee.. gg slp soon aft i blog finish.

had e sec 1 bball gals orentation yest and was ask to b dere for trg but couldn't get up. its raining oso and no strength to get up.. so sry-->su & coach. i will try to go another day. will de.. =) im waitin for east zone to start and to watch whether e guys had improve and are dey able to get wat dey wish for.. national is not impt. coach will alr b contented if u al get east zone top 4.. im hapi to hear tt dere's hope for gals.. hope dey able to continue and do us proud. missing coach trg le.. e tym wher we train, laugh, play, eat tgt. and oso get scolded tgt as we always say we stay tgt no matter wat happen cos we are a team.. but so sad is tt we are not much contact wit jy and ph le. so sad.. its not we dun care bout u 2 but u 2 shud noe we care and tt we jux dun show out cos we dunno hw to express it. hmmm.. jy-gotta study hard ar.. dun disappoint ur parents. u can still talk to us lik b4. ur frenster write as thou something happen to euu.. izit serious? i dunno hw to ask u cos u are e diff jy we noe last tym.. i noe i cant help but at least u can share ur trouble wit us..

xiang dao shi lan qiu ba wo men cuo he zai yi qi, zhe jiu shi yuan fen. lan qiu ye ba wo men de you qing man man de jian li qi lai..
*wu de nu zi lan qiu dui wan sui!!
annie, hwee ying, pei hua, nan, jie ying, surina, anastasia, hui jia, emily, sock hwee, wendy, jolene
love ya guys.. take care cos i care..

2007-01-11T09:24:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. hw shud i start?
ok.. haf been doing label for e past 2 days.. cos dere's not much bk so i help put for label. was actually doin charger last nite(e 1 gg india which nid not plastic). its so hard to put, almost jammed myself. lolx.. luckily gt ppl hu help mi. thanx.. =) aft a while, leader ask mi to go help label cos dey was jamming.. oops.. many boxes..

its fun pasting label, but it haf to b straight and cant b too crook. wen u paste too much, u will get bored and tired.. haix.. hope will change model den i can change to put hp? haha.. jux do watever e leader says and i wun feel bored le.. oso help to set line and all. so gud.. hee.. =)

been wanting to meet my frens but dun haf e tym to.. so sorry my frens.. too tired to meet up.. u al are oso either studyin or workin.. if possible, meet up on V day k? reason is simple-cos we are all SINGLE!! haha.. single is gud.. get al e freedom and no worries on relationship.. im knowin more ppl at my workin place.. more frens, more fun & laughter.. hee.. end here le.. =p

PS: dun treat mi so gud.. i dunno hw to repay euu..

2007-01-09T10:43:00.000+08:00

was too tired to blog tis few days.. finally feel lik blogging. hmmm..

saturday
as usual, get back in e morning frm wrk.. was veri tired and fall aslp as soon as i get hm.. was not workin in e nite as e in charge say e nite before. den was planning to meet my fren buy somt stuff den go church.. but was too tired and my fren called mi wake up. thanx jun.. haha..
den at ard 4, agent msg to say dere's wrk. but i dun care.. i take off every sat-to attend svc. attended svc.. e msg was GREAT.. its a little profound but to mi its alr veri gud. aft tt wen wit 3 other fren to inter to eat and slack. went back at 10 polus cos we keep dragging e tym.. haha.. hw i wish e others are oso tgt.. =) den went hm, surf web den off to dream land.. haha..

sunday
my leader msg mi in e morng sayin tt e agent say i fang fei ji.. alr tell him i not gg wrk le. haix.. talk to him lik talkin to children. been feeling moody oso, dunno y.. den wake up at 3 plus in e noon, watch tv and waited for tym to come to prepare for wrk.. as usual, take my tym and realize tt its tym le.. gotta quickly rush.. a short day i had.. jux between hm and wrk.. =) smiles..

monday
wrk was gud on sun nite.. was running non stop between line 2, 4 & 5. did many models and many dj.. haha.. thot i will take pay either sun nite or mon morng but e agent say gotte wait till 10th, wed. so sad.. nvm, i will not b gg out anw, will b wrk, wrk and wrk..

tuesday
jux reach hm.. last nite output was gud. we did 7000plus.. but sun nite was even better, close to 10,000.. hmmm.. line leader say gt wat take wat. haha.. she's so cute.. had a chat wit her in e morg before gg hm. had to leave cos parents and fren was waiting for mi.. cant chat le.. mayb continue in e nite or wat ba.. =)
yup.. so gotta go slp le.. feeling tired. if not, i will b sleepin dere tonite le. haha.. 'nitex'

2007-01-05T10:36:00.000+08:00

jux reach hm frm wrk.. feelin tired but decide to blog abt my wrk last nite. was feeling weird wen i went dere cos dere's onli 2 production line and my leader was not in sight. thot im gonna b under e fat leader. haix.. but, she appear as im gonna strart e line. so was feelin relieve.. hee.. yupps.. as usual, we was allocated wat we're suppose to do den stand at our 'place/station'. haha.. dunno wat's wrong wit mi last nite.. i jam several tyms.. even my fren and leader ask wat's wrong wit mi? hmmm.. im oso not sure.. suprising i jammed..!! mayb cos e ppl are diff and tt e box is hard to slot in e menus and all.. haix.. was oso feelin tired and could not concentrate.. i dun wanna run e line but gt no choice. cos e guy can still jam even dey put 1 item and e line is real SLOW!! so pissed off last nite. it seems tt dey are e leader.. for nth stop e line, den adjust e speed as and when dey lik. argh..!! forget it.. its over le.. hope tonight will b in a diff line wit dem.. or i'll suffer.. mayb im oso missing my line frens.. dey start sch le so wun b seeing much of dem.. esp-->milo aka ivy.. will miss u de. =) jux wanna write out hw i feel la.. hope to b more happi each and everyday..

2007-01-03T11:24:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. its e first day of sch for many ppl.. for mi? im schooless, no sch to start. didnt score well for o levels and nowhere to go. sad.. dunno wen will i haf e chance to meet my workin fren agn.. dey oso start sch 2dae. having their o levels tis year.-all e best to euu all. hope to meet up someday. i din manage to meet up wit u all on 31st.. =( we say we will meet up rite? so i will wait for tt day. haha..

although e tym we spent tgt is less and we dunno each other veri well, but each day we wrk and spent tgt, e frenship is alr build up. im hapi to noe all of euu.. =) we are always line 5.under xueyi..

hey su, thanx for helpin mi wit e blog. if not i will not succeed on my own. haha.. it seems tt im lik e mountain tortise. hee.. we will meet up someday to go eat. haha.. (always meetin to eat de)

2007-01-02T17:26:00.000+08:00

hoho!! dino is in town :)