Saturday, June 23, 2007

i just thought of you when i was out eating..
you just came to my mind all of a sudden..
how are you doing..
are you the same as before
can we meet up when you're free

bits and pieces of the past came to my mind..
i just couldn't stop my mind from thinking about you
i thought i'm able to withstand anything
but i'm not as strong as i think
i still need someone by my side to support me

i'm the eldest so i need to shoulder all the responsibility
everything is drop onto my shoulder
when can i lessen my burden and have a happier life
i'm happy but i feel that sometimes when i laugh or smile,
tears are forcing ways out of my eyes
its like quite emo and i can cry anytime

i want to be the happy me and not having to think of all sort of trouble
right now just want concentrate on studies, get into the course i want
i'm already 2 grades away so waste no more time

Thursday, June 21, 2007

been too busy and tired to blog.. jux went straight to bed as soon as i reach home. was so tired..

started work at my m industrie. haha.. its a nice job.. can noe abt the pattern of the clothes, noe how ppl normally work. but work 3-4 days per week cant earn much too.. wanna find another job but got to study and oso find time for revision and more.know few ppl over there.. dunno why although its a holi, there's still not much ppl. so our time pass quite slow..

2 weeks past so fast. work, study and out with frens.. so busy that i dun haf extra time to sleep. jux went to a wake on mon and tues nite.. din slp on tues nite. onli manage to go cousin hse for a rest then back for the funeral. its at mandai, soo far.. witness the whole thing agn.. missing my grandma. there's no control over my emotion..tears are ready to flow out but i refrain it as the family need more care and i too nid to extent my concern..

after that went home then bathe and odd to work. was so so tired can.. nvm.. those new arrivals made my nite new. then not much ppl agn. chat wit the staff working beside me.. chat bout life and past. then off we went at 10pm sharp. haha.. and before that tried a tube dress, so cute. its onli $15, cos aft discount, its cheap.. and i alr reserve a tube dress beforehand. seems like that i like this type of clothes.. haha..

gonna sleep le.. so tired now. working agn ltr in the evening.. so will wake up early to study a little before work. =) hope there is more sale tml and we can break our record. jia you.. meeting sam on mon to buy slip shoe cos mine spoil so looking forward.. will update soon.

ying here at 155am

Monday, June 4, 2007

been veri veri busy for the week.

start on my first job on tues, 29th of may. was late few mins cos i went to take passport size photo then was delayed.. was excited abt work in the first place but then regretted working there. din touch f&b for a long time. and place was different to my previous waitress job.. so naturally the things will be different. i was actually allocated to help the counter, but the supervisor say im slow then ask me to help outside. its lik quite disappointed. the manager dun seem to lik me too. nvm.. dun care abt it. i jux do my job and hm i go. end at 11 then delivery for my meal. hungry and tired..

thursday
went for svc in the morning frm work at wed nite then got bball 3 on 3 for emerge. din get the first.. second was alr not bad. then off to parkway to meet phy, xueyi and rest.. i go there asap. even take cab when i haf not enuff money. haix.. when i reach their face was lik not veri happy. say they waited for me for 1 hour plus. but i did told them i wun reach so early.. since its my fault then i jux accept it. reach hm at 7 plus.. can even go for emerge la. emotions surrounding me tt day.. feel so tired, sad, angry, fustrated, stress, moodless, disappointed.. slp at 8 plus tt day. thot of lying down but wen i woke up its lik middle of the nite. everyone sleeping le.. first time slp so early. guess im reali veri tired..

friday
went svc in the morning. actually meet ys for maths aft svc but was not feeling so well so change to sun aft svc 2.. work agn tt day. was even worse.. tink they reali dun lik me. wanna tell the manager abt schedule but he was lik 'go inside and check'. nvm.. there were empty cups to be clear. i ask the customers but they say to be clear ltr. then the supervisor say 'don't care wat they say. if you see any empty cups/jug, jux clear them' so who's wrong and who's right? dun even know whether is the customer still there.. and they ask to clear the table.. can forget abt this job. will be having another job on monday. same job as S and E.. tink will be happier there.

saturday
went for captain's ball game. din get into the next round.. no mood to play i guess. as in the feel is not there? haha.. quite fun tt day. meet jia and nan to watch the bball game between s'pore and taiwan.. liu gen hong was 1 of the player of taiwan too. in the end, s'pore won.. haha.. nice game. although my team din get into next rounds for cap ball, ana's team get first.. they defeated south i tink. haha.. nice game and congrats. bring glory to east.. was hapi being wit them. =)

aft that went hm lie a while then meet S and E go chalet. cant go nite svc.. oversleep then meet S a little late. went to eat ban mian then wait for E.. off to buy bubble tea then meet E to chalet. we are lik veri da pai.. ppl go on their own but the organizer go to inter to fetch the 3 of us. haha.. had a 'fun' time there. atmosphere weird.. off at 1130pm. no 31 when reach bedok mrt ststion stop. so cab back wit S.. 2 person share cheaper. hehe..

sunday
meeting 1130am at foyer 3. was late cos stay up to do maths.. cant i jux get up early? always making ppl late. mayb the day im early may be the day when there's a miracle.. quene was long. manage to get in and sit wit cg. thot our seats will be given up.. the drama was cool and nice. YEAH!!! haha.. aft tt was suppose to meet ys but no time. gotta queue for s8 and oso in merge mood.. went to get a quick bite then went to queue. its so long.. ppl are not walking but pushing. like gg chinatown then u no nid walk, ppl push can le. quite irritated.. there's this gal who lik keep leaning towards me. when i move she almost fall.. sock and i was lik 'is this gal ok? is she sick?' and she stand so near me. argh..!! got another person squeeze in then i tell sock why wanna cross dun wan say excuse me. tink i say too loud cos the 2 gal stop half way.. but its lik quite suffocating.

get in and we sit at delta arena.. haha.. view not bad. svc start few mins before 5pm.. many things gg on. end at ard 10.. 5 hours of svc. great time.. all my nites i place on the last day. was soo lucky i can go on sunday.. then rush to meet su and ana they at foyer 3. pass emily her veri belated present then off we go.. they got sch the next day and its oso lik ard 11 plus. scared no bus..

thats wat i do for the past week. hope to haf more wonderful week ahead..
start work on mon hope to be able to adapt it asap.. nid to plan my schedule. =) i wish to spend time wit all my frens. divide time equally.. hehe.. nan is playing for youth cup.. will try to fix a time to support her match. oso to watch other teams play. its been time since i last saw a bball match or play bball.. time to let go? i still haf the passion.

hwee ying updated at 0130am