Tuesday, August 26, 2008

sadness
hmmm.. decide to blog. was having feelings i dun like just now.. i din go work last fri and sat. head and back was so pain on fri that i lie on bed for most of the day.. and i din go see doc. then this mon when i went back work, hr and few ppl ask.. so i said i never go see doc. partly was cause i dun hav the money to see doc.. normally, ppl will say cause cant get out of bed or seriously sick.. but i dunno why i just say i no money. its like i just couldn't care about my face.. to other colleague, they seem ok. but the manager that im under, he asked me aft work and i just say out i dun hav money. and he lik ask what abt ur parents? i feel lik telling him if got money i sure go see. but i dunno.. and wat he reply i feel lik shouting out. he said:'no i don't believe'. what the! but suddenly i got a feel of not bothering abt him. a sentence came to my mind. 'if the manager don't believe its ok. ur Father believes!'

i hope i'll faster get to another branch or i'll leave that job soon. too costly for bus and train.. hard to cover the cost now. i'll not bother abt that man and just do my work.. he'll be just an invisible person to me from now on. i just dunno how i can talk to him.. do hope that i'll hav the rest of the week in happiness and peace.

jiayou everyone. its the exam season now.. it may be late for some of you but do enjoy your coming holis and all the best for your results! =)

Friday, August 22, 2008

hmmm.. wed bs was great! talking about 7 different kind of faith. i believe its a word for many people present there.. was so tired when i went bs. thank god i can concentrate but i cant remember the moment bs was over.. guess im too tired le.there's a sentence that have been heard a few times and during bs, it was mention again.. he says 'don't focus on the storms in your life'. if you keep thinking about the problem, it won't give you a solution. it will make you think more.. as we grow, we face more trials and overcoming all that will make us realize things in out life. it'll that make us grow more mature, more stronger and more independent in the way we do things. we won't rely much on people..

start my new job on mon. was so excited about it and was also anxious that i won't be able to cope.. but, so far all i do was to read their procedures and their necessary information. and i got to admit that i doze off while reading.. man, eyes is so tired looking through those pages after pages of words and information.. and i always struggle to open my eyes! haix. had known quite a few people at workplace and they're quite friendly and nice.. although they're more mature, but i know there's always topic to talk about. =) was so tired at work. was glad to have people chatting with me.

been feeling so tired lately. im not use to waking up early and travelling to tp and squeezing with people on the train. do hope that i can faster go to the branch im attached to so i got straight bus and don't need change to train..

hmmm.. been quite tired recently. don't have the energy to think of anything.. can i like just move back a few steps to rest at a shelter i just past and continue the journey after a rest. i dunno but this is something that im giving myself. i give myself too little rest and always busy.. so i'll feel so tired and wanna have a rest.

please, let me have a destination so i can move on and not to stand at the original place nor move back to have a rest.. tell me i'll able to have a long rest after the long journey is over.... i'll leave my cares onto yours hands. Your're my refuge, my shelter, my healer and strength..

Friday, August 8, 2008

friendship/relationship is fragile. its either you make it, or you break it. every relationship that you have with a person, holds a meaning in life. you'll have bad and good mermories. no relationship is perfect, cause noone is perfect! you can be a better person by changing. its not asking you to change for the sake of others but to change for the better. =) everytime you make a change, you're growing. you'll be more responsibe and more independent in ways of handling things.. you will no longer find friend to talk but you solve it yourself. its good but you can also find someone to talk to so you'll feel better letting it out..

friends are choosen by ourself. we know our friends through different ways in life and love them for who they are.. of course we don't expect ourself to tell them everything about us the moment we know each other. we got to be more familier, comfortable with each other so we can open up.. as years past, we will grow,change to someone more matured.. likewise to our friends too!

don't say you really know your friend unless you know yourself well. because if people know you more than you know yourself, its weird rite. lolx. and most importantly, you must love yourself! =p

there'll be many friends around us. but not all will stay and can always be there for us.. do treasure the friends that you have. one day they'll leave and have a family of their own.. you too will have your own family. so don't rely too much on friend, be independent! =) i love all my friend. let's work hard towards our dream. do something to let your friend know you love them too! =p

i shall end with something. if one day your friend choose his/her partner over friendship, don't blame your friend. because when you have a partner, you will also choose your partner. never say 'no, i won't', because you'll. but of course, your partner should get along well with your friends. if not, then you'll be trap in between. HAHA!

shall stop here. currently waiting for job to knock on my doors.. saving to fly. =p once again, love everyone. *hugs*

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

finally updating after fop as i said. haha.. people nagging me le. oops..

quite lost at what to blog. hmmm.. let's start on 2oth july.
as usual, we meet up to celebrate one of our birthday from our grop. guess who? its kuku sock's bday. haha.. meet up at marche for dinner. then after that sit at the open area at vivo, chat a little and home we go. everytime we meet up, time seems to past so fast.. we have lots to talk but it always never ending. and the next time we meet its lik a month time cos not all is free to meet up weekly. haha.. all're busy person. my turn to be busy soon. =p got to enjoy my free life now as much as i can.

the week after was pst derek sharing message.. its about Running the race to win. we have many race in our life to complete.. it can be easy or difficult. no matter how difficult/hard the race is, we got to try our best to finish it.. we don't always complete the run because of the prize but we complete the run because we want to finish it. but to know we can complete it eventhough its tough.. =)

hmmm.. had fop last week so cg and normal svc was cancelled. fop was from fri-sun. cant go on fri cause was not well.. went for sat's svc. was meeting to queue at 1030am but reach like ard 1pm. oops.. then we had a great time fellowshipping, knowing cass's fren, angelina. do hope she will join us for cg and svc.. svc was great but got to open eyes most of the time to see lyrics. haha.. message was great! shall not elaborate further. and i only went out for 2 days last week(wed-bs,sat-svc). rest of the week,at home!! slack,eat, watch tv. oh man.. gonna rust soon.

wanted to go town this mon but by the time i bathe, watch tv, i lazy travel so far. end up meet su,sock,annie for dinner. just 4 of us but had a nice meal and a short chat abt holiday and future home.. haha..

went to apply for jon on tues. the person say she had 5 jobs to help me with. i was lik 'wow', 'ok'. haha.. then she's gonna apply all 5 and see which job reply first. do hope that i'll be able to get a job soon and i can have money.. life without money is lifeless. cant do anything cos life consist of money..

all the best for me!
friend:i update my blog already. haha.. let's have a gathering real soon. not birthday, not occassion. but a meet up where we can have a good time tgt and share about our life =) shall update soon.. love everyone =p